Mood swings and mental speed bumps

I adore the fact that my brain has the simultaneous ability to know something is a fact and to try and convince me the opposite of the fact is true. I seem to get depressed over the most ridiculous things ever. There are times I almost wish that I didn't realize that I do this, because then at least I could get sunk into a nice deep funk and just stew in my own misery, as it were, but since I realize I'm being silly I just end up apologizing for my moods and feeling guilty.

Which does absolutely NOTHING to make me feel less depressed. Argh!

Why is it that even when you can identify your problems, admit to them, and work to improve them, they still just keep coming back? All I need is a nice compromised immune system, a few bad days at work, or a couple people touching the old sore spots, and I just fall back into this lovely cycle of self-loathing. I don't have much to loathe about myself, but boy, can my brain blow the littlest things into mountains...

Oh well. At least my comfort foods are almost all good for me...I thing I'll go make a big old bowl of asian noodle soup with lots and lots of veggies and stuff myself. Humph.