Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Understand

Interest can be expressed without being obsession.

Sadness can be expressed without being depression.

Sometimes things are actually remarkably simple, and you can't even see that because you're so sure it all has to be difficult and complicated. Just because that's all you've seen before, it doesn't mean that's what you're seeing now. I wonder sometimes how many difficulties arise just because you're expecting them.

There are things in my life I find boring and frustrating right now, so I'm actively trying to change them. I think this scares some people, but most of them are folks who've only known me since after the last time I got really fed up and needed change, which was when I made every plan required to move to Vancouver and had executed them all in the span of about 5 days. Change isn't super frightening to me, I'll always find my footing eventually.

Likewise, if I don't get what I want, I'll find something new to want. I'll sometimes pine for awhile, but I'll always deal with it eventually. Life's far too short not to enjoy it. Even on a rainy, cold day in late spring. No matter what else today holds, it holds some damn fine coffee courtesy of the shop I only go to when I take the train instead of biking. It holds a bagel with herbed cream cheese because I don't feel like making breakfast. It holds at least one hug, because people I love stop in to see me at work as they pass by. Even without anything else, those are enough for a balance of generally good to exist. I'm not terribly hard to please.

There're a lot of people out there I care about, and if you actually know me and know where this blog is, there's a good chance you're one of them. Look after yourselves, I don't want to lose anymore of you, okay? Have a damn fine day, kids.

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